I’ve struggled a bit today with my head 😑
I could feel it as I woke up this morning. Which was about 1,5 hours later than what I normally do - I slept through my alarm. I must’ve really needed the sleep.
But, my body felt heavy, dragging it along all morning long, trying continuously to hit the ‘start’ button but kept failing time after time..
Most of today has honestly been me trying to reason with my head. This is when my anxiety takes over and does all the talking for ‘me’. It’s very unpleasant and very debilitating. It makes me feel incredibly sad and very hopeless as a human. Although I know this isn’t the truth. In those moments, that anxiety trumps the reality. Today was one of those days..
And, I didn’t need to talk about it, analyse my thoughts or problems. I just needed to be loved, held and touched. A thing i think we often forget when we speak of mental health..
And so this afternoon I said to Pash; “can you please just give me hug?”, and so he did. Whilst I got to cry for a few minutes. Then he tucked me in with Archie and we slept for an hour.
Anxiety shows up so differently in everyone who deals with this monster. I’m sharing this because I want you to know that anxiety doesn’t make you less of a person or unworthy in any way.
It doesn’t make you weak or crazy.
It just makes you a little more sensitive. A bit more fine-tuned. And sometimes, we just have ‘one of those’ days..
The good news is that tomorrow is a new day with new opportunities and possibilities to grow from what we deal with within.
To become better and more compassionate people towards others and ourselves 🙏🏼
So, don’t ever give up x